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Some things just aren’t for you.

I think today I finally understood where most of my misery of the past year comes from. And the answer is quite simple: my job.

Today I had a long discussion with my mum and she (a qualified psychologist fyi) confirmed the conclusion I somehow reached by myself – working in customer service is making me absolutely miserable. Some people are just not fit for that kind of environment. However hard I try and no matter how well I’m doing at my job, the fact is, I will always be miserable while I’m spending most of my week in an environment that sucks out all joy and creativity of my soul and fills me with an endless sense of ennui.

For many months now I’ve been telling myself to just suck it up. Other people are able to have healthy and happy lives (well, relatively) while doing the same job as you, so you must just be lazy or a hopeless dreamer. The fact is, I am a dreamer in a sense, and that means that the creative and spiritual parts of my brain are so strong that when faced with a bland materialistic environment they start withering and slowly dying like a tree surrounded by factory smoke and hidden from sunlight by the shadows of concrete skyscrapers. I haven’t been lazy at all. I’ve been working my arse off for many months now and all I got was a feeling of emptiness and dissatisfaction. I don’t choose to be this way but I am one of the people who will always be miserable in certain jobs and who have to find other ways to earn their bread (or tuition fees haha).

So I feel some change coming that way. Now that I’ve finally made this decision I feel like I’m finally becoming myself again. And it’s bloody awesome. 

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15 thoughts on “Some things just aren’t for you.

  1. “Other people are able to have healthy and happy lives (well, relatively) while doing the same job as you, so you must just be lazy or a hopeless dreamer”

    That’s a wrong assumption in my opinion, not everyone can be satisfied with every job. It’s good to be a dreamer, and set out to achieve the goals you set for yourself. I hope you take the change well.

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    1. Thanks, yes that’s exactly what my point is! This sentence is just something that has been playing over and over in my head whenever I consider leaving the hotel, but I know now that it’s not true and that not everyone can do this kind of job (especially full-time) and not be affected by it πŸ™‚

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  2. Good on you to notice the reason/cause for any misery/unhappiness. It’s great to see people make changes like this, hope it goes well for you and goodluck with the job hunt. Hope you find one that embraces your creative side. πŸ™‚

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    1. Well until I graduate from drama school I might not be able to do anything that requires full time commitment, and plus there’s nothing really there that I want to do except acting. However, I’ll be looking into doing more freelance translation work which I find doesn’t mess up my mind and is at times quite interesting πŸ™‚ thanks for the encouragement!!

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  3. I feel the exact same at the moment! Knowing you could be happier doing something else is a torture of sorts πŸ˜› I hope you go for it and find all your dreams x

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  4. Ah! I’m happy to know you are embracing this change and feeling good about it!

    “The fact is, I am a dreamer in a sense, and that means that the creative and spiritual parts of my brain are so strong that when faced with a bland materialistic environment they start withering and slowly dying like a tree surrounded by factory smoke and hidden from sunlight by the shadows of concrete skyscrapers.” – THIS is so so relatable! hahaha I do get frustrated a lot in the same circumstances.

    Hope you can find something that will make you happier!

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  5. I’m glad you figured this out! Staying in bad jobs makes everyone involved worse off.
    Did you ever find a new job?

    I’ve been in that position for almost a year now and I can guarantee that if I could find a new job my current boss and I would be happier. I sit in a small room and try to work on a computer but I dream of creativity and human interaction. I know I don’t do as good of work as someone who would love the job. Alas, money is required to live so at the computer I must be.

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    1. Hey! I stayed in the job part-time actually because I’ve gone back to full-time studying. I only work on the weekends and it doesn’t make me feel so bad anymore πŸ™‚ I would have had to look for another job if I still worked full-time though!

      Aw I’m sorry to hear that you’re going through it right now. I really hope and believe that you’ll find a much better place for yourself soon!

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