I suppose I’d need some kind of introduction. The problem is, this is my first blog post and I still as yet have no idea what I want to write about. It’s not that I don’t have any ideas, rather the opposite – my thoughts are jumping over and above each other like waves in the sea and I seem to have as little control over what’s going on in my head as I have over the sea. I must warn you, Reader, whoever you are, that my essays are very likely to be fragmented and some thoughts might change their current before I ever manage to reach any conclusion. But that’s how my mind works. I don’t really even expect anyone to read this blog. Maybe I won’t even tell anyone about it. I’m writing not because I want to have a blog but because I feel this urgency inside me to finally start pouring my thoughts out into some productive way, to express myself, to share the unshareable.
My laptop just got completely stuck and unresponsive for a good 5 minutes. Maybe she feels this is a bad idea. I wouldn’t blame her. Anyway, as a little introduction I’ll detail some things I would like to write about, although I can’t give any sort of promise to stick to them.
I’m a 23 year old, English and Italian graduate, soon to be a full-time acting student at a Drama Academy in Scotland. Acting and theatre in general is a huge part of my life. I’ve been an amateur actress for over 3 years now and I’ve finally decided, with much uncertainty, to follow this path and to try to become a professional actress (whatever that distinction means). I love doing both stage and film acting, but the former is my one true love. I don’t think I’m ever more myself, more able to express the inexpressible that is locked up inside me than when I’m interpreting another character. I don’t know why that is, don’t ask me. I’m also a Christian and my relationship with God is a huge part of my life. If you’re not, don’t frown upon me and please try to keep an open mind, my Inexistent Reader. I have many opposites inside of me, but they all somehow have their place within my psyche.
I love traveling and photography, especially travel photography. I’m very unable to commit to anything in life. I gave up many things that I had potential to be good at just because I couldn’t keep the interest going (such as drawing, singing, football, even acting itself for a very very long time). I do want to start doing some of them again. Creativity is a huge part of my brain and my whole mindset. I love music, in the most metaphorical way I cannot live without it. I don’t go a day without listening to music, and I’m always with my earphones whenever I’m in town. I would say I am an extrovert but then again I’m fairly uncertain as to which category I fall into. I’m not good with labels and categories in general. I love cinema and cinematography fascinates me. I studied History of Cinema during my exchange year in Italy and I loved it. Italy is a big love of mine too. I always felt that my soul is most at home in this country, ever since I visited it for the first time as a 12 year old. I love adventure. My soul aches for it. I love doing the most random things and visiting unexpected places and meeting lovely random and quirky people. I love coffee. Not just love, I’m, in fact, addicted to it. If you see me in the morning before I had my first cup, you’d be safer to stay away. I don’t handle caffeine-deprivation too well.
I am fond of books but I find it quite difficult to commit to reading them. I am more of a visual person, so plays and films work much better for me. I used to read a lot at Uni as I did English Literature but somehow I never felt very passionate about it. I do read from time to time though, and I have come across some books that truly inspired me.
I guess that’s enough for now. I don’t want this blog post to go for ages and ages, being my first and all. I don’t imagine anyone is going to read this, but if you did and you stuck with me this long, thank you my lovely lovely Reader. Please come back again.